In Loving Memory of Karla Paloma Gonzalez

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

I recently lost a friend and gained an Angel. An angel that I truly love and already miss dearly. I have dealt with death before.. one too many times. Each time I think it might get easier, but in reality it never really does. I have been keeping busy because when I'm alone the tears just come pouring out like a river and I can't control the feelings I have inside. However, when I'm around others I feel calm and a sense of ease. It breaks my heart to know I will never see her beautiful face again. I can't help but think about what would have happened if somehow I could have changed the course of this tragedy. Deep down inside I also know that things happen the way they happen because it's simply our time.

I have never really known how to deal with death. I am always told to celebrate the life lived and to not be sad because it's over but to be happy because it happened. Simply meaning be happy that you got to know and love another human being.

My friend was a big believer in Jesus. As am I. One of the last things I told her was "God has bigger plans for you, Trust in him." She was going through a hard time just like most of us are and I tried my best to keep her going. I'd like to think that God somehow wanted her to enter his kingdom so that she wouldn't suffer anymore as well as sing and play her guitar for him. She played so well and was always singing everywhere we went. She was always the life of the party!

I really wish she was still here. I want to hear her loud funny laugh and just see her light up every room the way she always did. She was always so full of life. She was such a giving and hardworking human with a bright future ahead of her. I can't put into words how much I love her and will continue to love my dear friend.

Somehow I feel her presence and I know she is happy where ever she is. She is probably playing her guitar somewhere or figuring out how to be a lawyer in heaven. I want to celebrate her life and take her with me everywhere I go. Life is too short to not enjoy every second of it. I am reminded that we should not take a single day for granted. We must celebrate the life we live no matter how crazy complicated it may be. I challenge you to always say YES to new adventures and not let a day go by without telling those you care about you love them. We all have loved and lost. Truth be told it never gets easier. But the sun will still set and rise... and as my Palomita said... "God's love is unfailing. Learn to trust in him completely and you will understand the reason for the outcome."

Here's to celebrating life, in honor of
Karla Paloma Gonzales.
Gone but never forgotten.

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