I recently lost a friend and gained an Angel. An angel that I truly love and already miss dearly. I have dealt with death before.. one too many times. Each time I think it might get easier, but in reality it never really does. I have been keeping busy because when I'm alone the tears just come pouring out like a river and I can't control the feelings I have inside. However, when I'm around others I feel calm and a sense of ease. It breaks my heart to know I will never see her beautiful face again. I can't help but think about what would have happened if somehow I could have changed the course of this tragedy. Deep down inside I also know that things happen the way they happen because it's simply our time.
I have never really known how to deal with death. I am always told to celebrate the life lived and to not be sad because it's over but to be happy because it happened. Simply meaning be happy that you got to know and love another human being.
I really wish she was still here. I want to hear her loud funny laugh and just see her light up every room the way she always did. She was always so full of life. She was such a giving and hardworking human with a bright future ahead of her. I can't put into words how much I love her and will continue to love my dear friend.
Somehow I feel her presence and I know she is happy where ever she is. She is probably playing her guitar somewhere or figuring out how to be a lawyer in heaven. I want to celebrate her life and take her with me everywhere I go. Life is too short to not enjoy every second of it. I am reminded that we should not take a single day for granted. We must celebrate the life we live no matter how crazy complicated it may be. I challenge you to always say YES to new adventures and not let a day go by without telling those you care about you love them. We all have loved and lost. Truth be told it never gets easier. But the sun will still set and rise... and as my Palomita said... "God's love is unfailing. Learn to trust in him completely and you will understand the reason for the outcome."
Here's to celebrating life, in honor of
Karla Paloma Gonzales.
Gone but never forgotten.
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Hi friends!! How you doing?
I'm currently in my 4th year at UTSA but I want to share a little bit about my freshmen year...here it goes!
I began my college journey like many others. I was scared, nervous, and I couldn't stop thinking about how life was passing by way to fast. I am a first generation college student just like my sister and brother were. The only thing I knew about college was what I heard from my siblings and friends who had already began their new journey. On my first day of orientation I felt so alone. They separated me from my BFF and everything went down hill. Well, not everything. We had a lunch break and my group got in line to get food and I walked to use the restroom. When I got back my entire team was already sitting down having such a great time they forgot to get a seat for me. Anyhow, I got in line at panda express and a girl with a pretty braid was standing in front of me. We began to talk and exchanged numbers and have been friends ever since! Lets just say I am a big believer that everything happens for a reason and I'm so glad I have a small bladder.
Now to a real good part my BFF and I decided to get the same classes our freshmen year so we could spend time together since we knew it would be the only year we could actually have classes together and she told me to get Environmental science. Let me just say I was so ready to drop this class until I met another girl who has been a huge impact in my life. She was wearing a UTSA cap with her head faced down angry that the world made her wake up early for this 9am class. We were in a group full of guys and she never wanted to talk to me. Honestly I was pretty sad but then BOOM I spoke Spanish and we instantly became friends. Ok, not exactly... it took some time but yes we literally became adventure buddies.
I soon learned that the way to make friends is truly being yourself. People will always criticize you and look at you differently and who cares? BE YOU! Go out there make your friends and get involved in college. It is the best way to learn about yourself and meet others! You never know you might meet your future BFFS!
Freshmen year was a crazy ride, heartbreaks, not having a stove in our dorm to cook, the cafe didn’t serve food on the weekends, expensive books, being alone, netflix becoming your best friend, and over all just discovering what it is you want to do during your college experience.
If I could go back and tell freshmen year me anything it would be to have more experiences and to never let a boy or anyone tell me what and what not to do.
If you are in your freshmen/sophomore year don't miss out on anything great and most importantly let yourself shine. This life is way to short to stay behind closed doors. Say YES to every opportunity! I promise, you won't regret it!
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Everything you do now is for your future. Think about that.
New year new me? Is that what everyone says these days? Do you ever think that it's not really a NEW YOU? But a BETTER you?
Each year we set goals for ourselves and half of us may accomplish them the other may fail miserably and thats okay. We are human, it's okay to mess up... the truth in becoming a better you is to be able to bounce back from the extra cookie you ate and not let your goals become dust just because you messed up and had tacos for dinner. NO GIRL NO! We deserve to be happy, live happy, and enjoy a big mac every once in a while.
It took me a while to think about improvements I'd like to accomplish this year and not all of them revolve around the gym and carrots for breakfast.
Some of my goals are...
1. Become a better person.
To often I find myself on Instagram wishing I had someone else's life. I want their hair, flawless skin, beautiful toned body, and well the list goes on. I scroll and scroll down instagram thinking "how is her life so perfect?" that I almost lose sight of mine. This year I want to fall in love with my life. I don't want to imagine living someone else's because in reality mine is pretty great. Sure I don't get to hop on a plane and travel any time I'd like but I do have two hands, two legs, and a healthy body to get me to work everyday so I can save for my little vacations. I am so thankful for what I have and I encourage you to do the same. Look around... where are you right now? Maybe sitting in your car waiting for the light to turn green while your best friend is driving you to a concert, maybe your in bed with a roof over your head, or maybe you are cuddled up next to the love of your life drinking hot chocolate. Not many people have that so be thankful each and everyday for everything you do have.
2. Go to sleep earlier
I am the worst at this. Studies show that people who sleep less than 8 hours a day are more likely to suffer from anxiety and depression... I suffer from really bad anxiety. I want things to be done NOW and I freak out about the smallest of things and it really gets to me. Just a couple of months ago during the fall semester of my senior year I got really sick. I was in and out of the doctors office and they really didn't know what was wrong with me. I was sick for an entire month meaning no school = bad grades. No work = no money. I was literally just in bed and I was so sad.
Before getting sick I cried all the time because I had so much to do. I was president of my organization, still active in other clubs, was working on campus, and still making time to have a life apart from everything else. I over did it! I was always so stressed that the stress made me sick. My anxiety was triggered on another level and the doctor told me "don't stress you will make it worse" imagine trying to do all that was needed with out stressing?
I am trying to go to sleep earlier and earlier everyday. Honestly, I am already starting to feel the difference. I am able to wake up early for work and my classes and still get a work out in with out feeling dead tired as I did before. I'm now calculating how many hours of sleep I'll get to make sure I'm hitting that 8 hour mark. A problem I have with sleeping is that I toss and turn a lot before actually falling asleep. If you have any tips on how to fall asleep faster please share them with me!
3. Work out to eat TACOS
No but for real. I can eat just about any kind of food wrapped up in a warm flour tortilla. It's terrible. Everything I know how to cook is not so healthy for me... all these Mexican dishes have my love handles growing love handles. This new year I plan on working out and completing 150 minutes of cardio a week. I am starting a challenge at the UTSA recreation center and I'm excited to reach my goals! My biggest motivation to work out is to keep my body healthy and strong for traveling and adventures. We only have one body and we have to take care of it.
4. Pass all my state exams
I am studying to be a bilingual teacher and I'm telling you now I thought this was going to be Easy-Pea-z and NOPE it is not! It is so much reading, writing, researching, developing, presenting, and the list goes on. I have been so stressed over this mainly because each exam costs about $130 dollars and I don't even have enough for 3 of them in my bank account.. like come on Mr. Government I'm about to start working for the people, cut me some slack please? I have been studying around everything else I am doing and truth be told I probably should be studying as I type this but this is hands down way more fun. I'm looking for ideas and tips on how to prepare besides taking practice exams so if you have any thoughts hook a sistaahh up!
Trying to figure out what your goals are? Here are a couple things to consider…
GET PHYSICAL
Dance, hike, walk, clean your room, play with your dog
MENTAL
Read a super good book (currently reading the sun and her flowers)
Learn a new skill like taking on photography.
Turn off your phone and connect with the real world.
EMOTIONAL
Practice yoga.
Meditate.
Talk with a friend.
Journal
Blog.. let your self feel and release what you have inside.
There is so much we can do to better ourselves we just have to stop making excuses and start.. Right now.
Thats all I have for today. Take care love bugs!♥
Hello love bugs!!!
Welcome to my blog! For my first post, I thought I would tell you a little bit about myself.
My name is Jaslyn, I am from a small Texas border town where I grew up with my parents and two older siblings. I am super close to my family, probably a result of growing up in a small home where I didn’t have my own room until I was twelve years old. I am the baby of the family and to be honest, I still act like it too... I still hold my dads hand and cuddle up to my mom every time I go home to visit because I still get scared of the creepy sounds my house makes.
I am a foodie. I especially love tacos and add salsa to everything. I love to dance. You can catch me dancing even when there is no music playing. I am a babysitter. I love taking care of kids. I mean straight up ADORE the little boogers. I’m in my fourth year of college, but I still don’t know what I want to do in the future. I am studying bilingual education and while I love babysitting, I can’t see myself being a teacher for the rest of my life.
I love to travel. Even if it’s only traveling to a small town or city an hour away from where I live. Oh yea, I live in San Antonio, Texas by the way! I moved here when I started at The University of Texas at San Antonio. I love being outdoors more that I like watching Netflix, although Gossip Girl and Friends win every time. I love to surround myself with beautiful good hearted souls that will tell me when I have red lipstick on my teeth and who enjoy a day full of adventures instead of a night out partying. I have a family that make me feel so very loved and a boyfriend who makes me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world.
I’m in love with photography as you will notice and if you ask who takes my pictures, a lot of the times its my loves, or myself. YES! I am that girl who has her tripod with her when no one else is around to take pictures for me, let’s just say I get weird stares all the time (HAHAHAHA) it’s GREAT! I’m excited to share a piece of my pie with each of you and I hope you do too! I love people and I am so excited to get to know y'all!
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